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I'm the canary in the ^%$#@ coal mine.

I've always been the most sensitive one.

I was with my gf in college watching "My Life" from Michael Keaton.

Lights go back on: I am soaked. Tears all down my cheeks.

Her: blinking at me, dry-eyed. :D

embarrassing!

And I thought that was my weakness.

And I tried to get over it. (Seen 'the accountant'?)

Turns out, there is a name for this: HSP

Highly sensitive people.

And I am the HSP-est of all the HSP's it seems.

Bright lights. Loud noises. Strong smells. Hot and cold. Skin sensation.

It all drives me NUTS.

The temperature has to be just right.

And my dad is a man's man. Loves to wrestle. Played baseball in college.

I wanted to study music.

Him: No.

Law. Engineering. Something useful.

And I've seen that as a curse my whole life.

But what if it isn't a curse?

What if being too sensitive is actually a blessing?

And not just for me, but for everyone else as well?

How so?

All I'm thinking about day after day is how our world is collapsing.

and how so many of us have the keys to a better world.

and how it's so difficult for us to get those ideas out there.

In fact, the only place I've been able to get lots of views and lots of comments is Nextdoor lately.

and half of the comments are simply critical. I honestly don't know if they are the deep state or the CIA bots or just people being negative.

And even people that are speaking are talking in such generalities that I wonder who they really are and what they really need.

world is hurting, and we know the world is hurting, and run by evil.

And we kind of have an idea of what to do to fix it.

But somehow we don't, we aren't, and we can't.

Probably because we can't really be honest with ourselves and each other.

Why is evil more successful?

Because they are 1) More determined and 2) more coordinated

than we are.

It's easy to "collaborate" when you can just threaten, blackmail, or off anyone who doesn't do what you want. ;)

It's hard to collaborate when it requires vulnerability and openness and none of us want to let anyone else control us.

Most husbands I work with can't talk to their wives about what they really want. Most wives can't talk to their husbands about what they really need.

What chance is there to be able to speak to each other in any degree of openness and feel safe?

about what we really want, about what we really need, how we really feel.

This is a world in which we want to appear cooler and smarter and invulnerable and powerful and there is no real community. All our programming is antithetical to connection and love.

So how do we make it happen?

I've been thinking about it and having deep discussions with my favorite AI about it for a couple weeks now.

I thought I had the perfect tool to make it happen, but alas, I see giant holes.

So I rethought everything.

And, basically, we have to open ourselves up to practice 'the old ways' again.

Going v-e-r-y slowly. Move slow to go fast...

Every day there are more revelations.

Basically, I'm calling people to become adults, to become mature.

When you're an adult, you don't need anyone to manage you or... Stop you from doing bad things or to make sure you do get good things.

I mean, you can hire a coach if you want.

But you don't need a government, you don't need management. You just need people telling you how they feel and what they want, which mature adults can do.

But almost no one can do in our society.

So I'm calling you to become an adult.

to begin the journey of taking responsibility for your own life, for saying what you want, for not doing stupid things, for not obeying idiots, and child molesters.

That's not so bad, is it?

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As long as we're talking about it, what's the other problem? is that the few men who see things clearly think that only they see things clearly, don't want to listen to anyone else and they don't want to follow anyone else and so they don't get anything done, even though they're spewing out information constantly.

I'm not going to publish this and I hope no one reads it.

I've been endlessly frustrated with the world and how everyone is doing things.

And I never took responsibility to take care of it myself.

What if I'm the one I've been waiting for?

What if I'm the one who can simply decide that children will no longer be abused?

What if I don't need to convince anyone?

What if I don't need to gather anyone?

What if I just decide to stop the bad things?

When I got back here, I thought that I would just have to retreat until society collapsed.

But what if I can head that collapse off?

All by myself?

With no man who believes in me or supports me.

with no lover who believes in me and supports me.

What if I can just do it all by myself?

What do the Epstein emails tell us about the rich and the powerful?

Most directly: that they don't give a *&^% about grammar or spelling!

Does that make them dumb? or smart?

Well, they went to the best prep schools. They often had Ivy League educations. Why don't they care about grammar or spelling?

Because of how they were taught and what they were taught to focus on.

And studying that difference has shown me that the way the poor (esp the gifted poor) are taught about communication, grammar, and spelling are tools of mind control.

How? I'll explain.

You were taught to spell things "right". To get things "right".

They weren't.

They were taught to be effective.

They're worried about being understood. They're not wasting time "doing it correctly". They're thinking about doing it "effectively" or "good enough" (time vs energy investment).

There's tons of focus on "doing it correctly" and pleasing authority in public school.

There's much less of that in private, expensive schools.

I've done a whole deep dive into the education that the rich and the powerful get and the poor do not.

The good news is that you can give yourself this education (if you missed it) or gift this education your children starting from TODAY.

DM if you want my report about it.

Anthropic has created arguably the world's best AI right now.

And it has a huge bug that's costing me money.

I tried all the methods that existed to try to get to their support.

An AI was there immediately, which didn't help me at all.

The interwebs say it can take a week or more for me to get a real response.

Every day this isn't solved, they are costing me.

It's not a giant problem to fix either. It's something that would take a human maybe 10 or 20 minutes to sort out, if that. And it's impacting lots of other people as well from what I'm seeing on the net.

So it's ironic that we build these systems and we can use them in one of two ways:

1. To connect more deeply.
2. To distance ourselves even more.

Instead of using the tech to be helpful and to improve the relationship that I have with your company, you're using it to avoid paying customer support, to solve my problem more slowly, and make me more frustrated.

In many instances, what we're scaling with tech, including AI, is disconnection, abandonment, and sometimes what feels like outright rejection.

Amazon

Contrast this to Amazon's AI.

When I talk to Amazon's AI, It has the authority to give me refunds. It often actually resolves my problem as fast or faster than a human could.

Amazon is using the tech to build a better relationship with me instead of hiding behind it and creating a worse one.

I believe that moving forward, this will be the fundamental dichotomy between success and failure. Loneliness and connection. Happiness and misery...in terms of using this tech.

I'm designing my systems to make sure that we are brought closer together as people, and not pushed further apart.

I did two very strange things when I was a kid.

Number one, I ate dirt. Mommy told me not to.

Number two, I sucked on bullion cubes.

Why?

Now, at that point, we just kind of thought that these were childish weird things that I did.

Now that I realize that most of my childhood was spent consuming cold cereal, ramen noodles, and Campbell's Soup (even when we had $)... I understand what I was doing.

I WAS LOOKING FOR MINERALS!

The body is inherently intelligent. It's looking for healing. It's looking for the resources it needs.

And if it isn't finding them in the food or in the relationships, it goes to other places.

Historically, sweet things (honey, maple syrup) and salty things (salt was mined with lots of impurities), contained all of the trace minerals that the body needs.

The body needs many minerals, even if some of them are in very trace amounts.

For some reason I refuse to eat pork and beef growing up. So I was missing a lot of important elements that the rest of my family was getting.

And my body decided to just go ahead and eat dirt to try and find those minerals.

Plausible?