Now

We are all a little bit insane.

Really. Don't you feel it?

Are we rational in any way, shape or form?

Can we explain why we do what we do?

Is it moving us toward what we want?

Are we afraid of the things we want to be afraid of?

That make sense to be afraid of?

I just posted a video calling for the eecuations of child mlesters.

I am used to getting banned. Attacked. Whatever.

And, honestly, I am somewhat worse for wear after the years. Why should I care about that?

Doesn't make much sense to be.

Things are as they are.

I love you.

I created my guidelines today.

I didn't want to. Part of me didn't want to.

It was scary.

But it felt honest.

You can read them here:

The Prerequisites

If you want to interact with me, here are the prerequisites:

I don’t interact with anyone who is drunk or stoned. I never am.

I don’t engage deeply with anyone who uses drugs or alcohol even semi-regularly. (Psychedelics excepted—you are welcome to talk to me about this.)

I tolerate zero physical or verbal abuse.

My Desires

Express to me, as clearly as you can, as honestly as deeply as you can, as early as you can in the relationship: what you want from me or what I can give or do for you.

The Seven Commitments

My standards to you.

I only engage deeply with those who agree to them as well.

I will not hurt people.

I will not take what isn’t mine.

I will tell the truth.

I will keep my word.

I will clean up my own messes.

I will respect other people’s space and boundaries.

If I have a problem with someone, I will talk to them about it.

The Repair Process

If I do not keep those, or hurt you in some other way, here’s what I promise to do when I do:

Name what I did specifically.

Learn what it cost you or how it hurt you.

Fix what I can.

Commit to not doing that thing again.

As long as you do the same, we keep going.

I was angry.

Because she lied.

I was talking to a "very powerful spiritual leader".

A woman.

Who had had "many near death experiences".

And "came from Rigel, with the dragons".

Hot. Deep. At least, wanted to appear deep.

Wanted to talk. Ostensibly about selling me something (though I said I wasn't going to buy).

Halfway through the conversation, she made a promise.

And broke it less than 24h later.

Watching "spiritual" people. New Age People. Especially female kind...

The kind who claim to be 'in tune with their emotions'.

Making promises.

Breaking promises.

Now I know why I left that entire game.

And it hit me:

These people have no integrity whatsoever.

What is integrity?

It comes from 'integrated'.

And, basically, what it means, is that the parts of you cooperate.

Your pieces aren't fighting. You don't have one piece saying, "I'm going to be kind to old people," and another saying, "But I really want to run them over."

You are one thing.

We say: you keep your word if you have integrity.

Because your parts aren't so at war with yourself that whatever you said Monday, doesn't apply Tuesday.

But, that doesn't necessarily come from being evil.

Another woman wrote a contract with me. She thought about it long and hard.

She signed it.

And six days later (it was a five-year contract), she walked away from it.

Silently. Without even talking to me.

They are both perennially single, btw.

As are a lot of 'spiritual' women who are 'free from the shackles of religion'.

I wonder why?

And I thought: the basic ways we were taught to be a decent person, no longer apply.

There are no rules anymore.

These things don't apply:

• I will not hurt people.
• I will not take what isn't mine.
• I will tell the truth.
• I will keep my word.
• I will clean up my own messes.
• I will respect other people's space and boundaries.
• If I have a problem with someone, I will talk to them about it.

Ghosting.

Expediency. Doing 'whatever I feel like right now'.

Not "what is right". Not 'what I said'.

Whatever I feel like.

The very concept of "what is right" basically no longer exists in our society.

Especially among those who claim to be 'higher'.

Wonder why you are lonely?

Wonder why you can't get collaboration and cooperation?

Maybe it's because your word...your integrity...means nothing to you.

So, it ends up meaning nothing to others.

And you find yourself alone.

> What if you say you are going to do something, and you find out a little later that it will cost you more, cause you discomfort, or be inconvenient? YOU DO IT ANYWAY - Myron Golden

https://www.iflscience.com/ghosting-causes-emotional-pain-that-lasts-longer-than-being-directly-rejected-83009

I take any topic: For instance, a judge in Las Vegas is fighting with the sheriff about letting someone out with an ankle bracelet. Sheriff says he is too dangerous. Who is right?

First of all, we all feel like we have a right to comment about this or any other political situation.

That's a lot better than countries where you don't have that right.

But they learned a long time ago that simply keeping you from information isn't enough.

They need to bury you in it.

This is why we have misinformation and disinformation. This is why these words exist.

If I can keep you from understanding the reality of the facts, then nothing that you do after that is going to give you freedom.

Here, you would need to understand:

1. The Legal System
2. The situation in question
3. All relevant statutes and case law
4. blah blah blah

The truth is, that none of that matters.

if the basic organization of your society can't be understood by a fifth grader, then it's being used to protect corruption and not to protect you.

So I've started looking at all of this via greenfielding and first principles.*

The truth is that both the sheriff and the judge are using stolen money to steal your energy and confuse you.

The truth is that it isn't very difficult to find a safe path for society in this situation.

The truth is that everyone has been brain-dirtied to the point they can't see it happening.

So you are arguing about the dimensions of the chicken coop while all the eggs AND feathers are being stolen.

For the past year, I have been studying the basic principles of understanding reality.

They are called the Trivium, and this was the foundation of a liberal education in ancient times.

The 1) Fact gathering 2) Logic (processing) 3) Productive Discussion

This has been all but been lost in our society.

Luckily, for people who want to learn how to gather the information, think clearly, make decisions, and speak to others about it, you can create your own path, using the tools I have found.

We don't have to keep going things they way we have been.

There is a whole different path. It starts with learning to think.

Let me know if that interests you.

I haven't dreamt like this before.

Not about ...

Not like this.

Journeys.

Together.

Two nights.

So clear.

Why?

Whoa.

You (I) don't often [never] feel [experience] what happened today [for the past year].

How (should?) can I put into words [what is pure sensation] this...experience?

God.

Woman.

Man.

One.

"Eye hath not seen"

Goodnight.

I'm the canary in the ^%$#@ coal mine.

I've always been the most sensitive one.

I was with my gf in college watching "My Life" from Michael Keaton.

Lights go back on: I am soaked. Tears all down my cheeks.

Her: blinking at me, dry-eyed. :D

embarrassing!

And I thought that was my weakness.

And I tried to get over it. (Seen 'the accountant'?)

Turns out, there is a name for this: HSP

Highly sensitive people.

And I am the HSP-est of all the HSP's it seems.

Bright lights. Loud noises. Strong smells. Hot and cold. Skin sensation.

It all drives me NUTS.

The temperature has to be just right.

And my dad is a man's man. Loves to wrestle. Played baseball in college.

I wanted to study music.

Him: No.

Law. Engineering. Something useful.

And I've seen that as a curse my whole life.

But what if it isn't a curse?

What if being too sensitive is actually a blessing?

And not just for me, but for everyone else as well?

How so?