I was angry.
Because she lied.
I was talking to a "very powerful spiritual leader".
A woman.
Who had had "many near death experiences".
And "came from Rigel, with the dragons".
Hot. Deep. At least, wanted to appear deep.
Wanted to talk. Ostensibly about selling me something (though I said I wasn't going to buy).
Halfway through the conversation, she made a promise.
And broke it less than 24h later.
Watching "spiritual" people. New Age People. Especially female kind...
The kind who claim to be 'in tune with their emotions'.
Making promises.
Breaking promises.
Now I know why I left that entire game.
And it hit me:
These people have no integrity whatsoever.
What is integrity?
It comes from 'integrated'.
And, basically, what it means, is that the parts of you cooperate.
Your pieces aren't fighting. You don't have one piece saying, "I'm going to be kind to old people," and another saying, "But I really want to run them over."
You are one thing.
We say: you keep your word if you have integrity.
Because your parts aren't so at war with yourself that whatever you said Monday, doesn't apply Tuesday.
But, that doesn't necessarily come from being evil.
Another woman wrote a contract with me. She thought about it long and hard.
She signed it.
And six days later (it was a five-year contract), she walked away from it.
Silently. Without even talking to me.
They are both perennially single, btw.
As are a lot of 'spiritual' women who are 'free from the shackles of religion'.
I wonder why?
And I thought: the basic ways we were taught to be a decent person, no longer apply.
There are no rules anymore.
These things don't apply:
- I will not hurt people.
- I will not take what isn't mine.
- I will tell the truth.
- I will keep my word.
- I will clean up my own messes.
- I will respect other people's space and boundaries.
- If I have a problem with someone, I will talk to them about it.
Ghosting.
Expediency. Doing 'whatever I feel like right now'.
Not "what is right". Not 'what I said'.
Whatever I feel like.
The very concept of "what is right" basically no longer exists in our society.
Especially among those who claim to be 'higher'.
Wonder why you are lonely?
Wonder why you can't get collaboration and cooperation?
Maybe it's because your word...your integrity...means nothing to you.
So, it ends up meaning nothing to others.
And you find yourself alone.
> What if you say you are going to do something, and you find out a little later that it will cost you more, cause you discomfort, or be inconvenient? YOU DO IT ANYWAY - Myron Golden