What i learned is that my success in any field happens, at my level not because i do some things pretty good most of the time. It's because i do, 100% perfectly, the thing I should do when I should and DON'T do the thing I shouldn't, 100% of the time.
And every failure in the past few years?
I didn't hold that discipline where I knew I should.
It cost me financially.
It happened in relationships.
In numerous other ways as well.
Sometimes I didn't because it was boring.
Sometimes I didn't because it was hard.
Sometimes I didn't because I was triggered.
Sometimes I didn't because I was afraid.
Sometimes I didn't because THEY aren't doing it either!!! (that doesn't matter)
And it feels impossible, but it's not. It's just very, very difficult.
Strait is the gate and narrow the way that leads to life.